Hey Kirkpatrinatics! Amber here, with some sad news…
After 12 years of running ChrisKirkpatrickHeadquarters.tripod.com/site/main, I’ve finally decided to call it quits.
It was a tough decision, perhaps the toughest decision of my life. But after some real soul-searching (and a little “tuff luv” from my stepmother), I truly believe that it is the right decision.
I remember starting CKHQ back in 1998 (that long!?) during a time when it felt like the whole world revolved around Chris and company. I know my whole life revolved around him. These days, there isn’t enough CK news to fill my days. After a little twirl out of control (or “spiral” as my therapist calls it), I finally saw the light and came to terms with his departure from the limelight.
I will remember you all fondly: GorillaKate, DivaQueen99, HeatherK, MiamiJen, *NSylvia, and everybody from the board. I remember our post VMA chatroom parties that would last into the wee hours of the morning, Tara’s awesome desktop wallpapers, Steve P’s CK fan fic, and how supportive we all were during that terrifying afternoon where that car accident hoax got out. I know you haven’t logged into the chat in years, but I’d like to think you’ve all gotten one time or another and read this message. I want you all to know how important of a role you played in my life and in the CKHQ community.
I would also like to thank Doreen, my stepmother, for her pleas of desperation. She really kept me from veering off into Nutsoville, and she helped finance the site during my financial ruin.
And finally, I would like to thank the man who made this site possible. Yes, that’s you Chris. I’ll never forget our impromptu 3am meeting in your backyard that one fateful night. I had been driving for 13 hours straight, I was a nervous wreck, and I didn’t know what on earth I was doing, but you remained patient and calm through the whole ordeal. I do not blame you for pressing charges, and it never once wavered my fandom for you.
Do not think that my closing this site changes the way I feel about you. I love you, Chris. No matter what comes between us. Don’t forget. I FUCKING LOVE YOU.
Well, I suppose that’s it for CKHQ. Maybe I will check in from time to time, but I doubt it (SPOS*). Thank you all once again, and I’ll leave with these words:
“I think the biggest motto about the group and everything that we say is ‘Everybody makes mistakes.’ Ya know, everybody says a cuss word now and then. Well not everybody but ya know most people that say they don’t, do. Everybody makes mistakes. Our point is we’re out to try to be good human beings and try to set good examples. We screw up, we screw up, but we don’t dwell on the screw ups. And we don’t set out to do anything wrong. We don’t set out to be evil. We don’t set out to purposely do harm on anybody else. Ya know we just set out to have a good time.And we’re all five of us are very religious. We all have our own different beliefs that we believe in and we don’t force that on anybody. Ya know if somebody asks us oh sure yea, we’re religious, we’re Christian,’ ya know we believe our own thing. But nothing worse than having somebody that says 'I’m not religious’ or 'I don’t care.’ Ya know something like that. Or then somebody that says they care too much. They care so much that they’re gonna force you into changing who you are. Or changing what you believe or how you’ve come… I mean I’m all down for it if somebody has a problem with something, religion, whatever, they come to me, I’m all open and I’m giving as much advice as I can. But for me to walk into a room and say 'Hey how you doing?’ Uh, let me force something down your throat. Let me force a belief. Let me force uh, my republican beliefs on you. Let me force my democratic beliefs on you. I don’t get into the whole thing. I hate it when people take sides. I hate it when people have to say 'Well this is what I am.’ Because then suddenly, this ideal, you have to believe everything that’s in that ideal. Maybe I don’t. So then suddently I’m a democrat that just doesn’t believe in everything a democrat believes in? I don’t get it. Why can’t I just be myself? Why can’t I just be my own thing. Ya know, I think that’s pretty much how all of us are for the most part.”
* Step parent over shoulder. I’ll be back sooner rather than later.